I've just finished reading a romantic novel called Lilah's List by Robyn Amos, it’s a about a woman who at the age of 16 wrote a list of all the things she'd like to do before she turned 30, now weeks before her 30th birthday she is on a trip to try and finish her list. This book inspired me to draw up my own list of things I want to do before I turn 20, which would be in about 11 months time on the 7th of December. These are the twenty things I want to do before I turn 20, I’ll try and keep this blog going and let you know when I can start crossing things off the list :)
So, here goes...
Linda’s List
1. Get fit
2. Take a road trip
3. Learn to play an instrument
4. Visit the London zoo
5. Go to a stage musical
6. Attend a film festival
7. Ride on a motor bike
8. Visit France
9. Be sexually satisfied
10. Sleep under the stars
11. Leave a letter in a library book for someone to find
12. Go paint balling
13. Get a piercing/tattoo
14. Try drugs
15. Learn a new foreign language
16. Get drunk
17. Write a children’s book
18. Visit the Stonehenge
19. Donate blood
20. Get a bonsai tree
Tuesday, February 2
Sunday, December 20
Sometimes i feel sorry for myself.
dont you ever wish that you were just born in another family
or that you had no family at all and that you were adopted
or that you lived ina children's home like tracy beaker?
i knw its sad, but you cant believe how many times i wish, or even prayed for that to happen or even be true.
i'm not going to vomit my personal life affairs online as it would be disrespectful to my family.. i knw. but sometimes you just need someone to talk to, some to understand, not even, just to listen to you. sometimes its hard to just carry on doing what you we doing without stopping and thinking.
ive been in a middle of an abusive relationship fo 19 years on my life. i say in the middle because i'm just a sort of spectator,devider, i'm always present but my actiona count to nothing, in both parts. yes my parents are african, its common, i'm not acting the victim here, but even though its common for africans to argue a ;lot, its not common for a couple now ogether for 20 years to fight near and sometimes to physical contact every single day, holidays included, especially on days such as christmas days, easter, family outings and when visitors are around. its not common for a woman to disrespect her husband, talk , talk, talk even when her husband has threatened her multiple times . its not normal for a man to break all glass furniture including mirrors, phorframes, mugs, cups and tables ( yes, tables, plural).
i dont know how much more of it i can take.
its ok when i'm in nottingham, i miss having my amily around.
now i'm here i just want to disappear.
i cant wait to go back to nottingham and not come back until its necessary.
i just pity my sister and my brothers who still have many years of this ahead of them... at least they had each other ... i had no one.
sometimes i feel sorry for myself.
or that you had no family at all and that you were adopted
or that you lived ina children's home like tracy beaker?
i knw its sad, but you cant believe how many times i wish, or even prayed for that to happen or even be true.
i'm not going to vomit my personal life affairs online as it would be disrespectful to my family.. i knw. but sometimes you just need someone to talk to, some to understand, not even, just to listen to you. sometimes its hard to just carry on doing what you we doing without stopping and thinking.
ive been in a middle of an abusive relationship fo 19 years on my life. i say in the middle because i'm just a sort of spectator,devider, i'm always present but my actiona count to nothing, in both parts. yes my parents are african, its common, i'm not acting the victim here, but even though its common for africans to argue a ;lot, its not common for a couple now ogether for 20 years to fight near and sometimes to physical contact every single day, holidays included, especially on days such as christmas days, easter, family outings and when visitors are around. its not common for a woman to disrespect her husband, talk , talk, talk even when her husband has threatened her multiple times . its not normal for a man to break all glass furniture including mirrors, phorframes, mugs, cups and tables ( yes, tables, plural).
i dont know how much more of it i can take.
its ok when i'm in nottingham, i miss having my amily around.
now i'm here i just want to disappear.
i cant wait to go back to nottingham and not come back until its necessary.
i just pity my sister and my brothers who still have many years of this ahead of them... at least they had each other ... i had no one.
sometimes i feel sorry for myself.
Tuesday, December 15
using the charger too keep my heart from freezing
procastinating as usual...lol, i need to start doing work and i assure you i will... just as soon as i finish this post :P
i have decided i wont be going on an april field trip to either cube nor japan as they r very expensive and i dont have the money readily available with me, instead i decided to focus totally on my universitas 21 application to National University of Singapore.. i hope i get in, i really wanna go there now, even if its really daunting... 6 months in a differnt country and continent, plus apparently its really hard down there, but still i just really wanna experience it!
so for this summer i have 3 option ( for now) 1 is it get a work placemnet with a architect here in london ...2 to save money and go to Nigeria and stay there for a bit ... 3 to go to italy , strangely the latest which would have been my favourite option just a few months ago is now my least favourite, i dont think italy has much more to offer than it already has done, i'm not sure what i would do if i go there... i mean yh its fun but its not meaningful.
somethign else i'd like to do this summer would be go to volunteer in africa or go camping all summer maybe in the uk but like all the way through the summer. i just wish anyone would like to do that with me, its cheap, its fun, its safe, i mean like a month circulating the national parks like 1 week in peak district, 1 in lake district, 1 in yorkshire dales, 1 in black mountains,1 in i dunno i would just love it!!!!!!!
i fell like i need some excitement in my life really !!!
i have decided i wont be going on an april field trip to either cube nor japan as they r very expensive and i dont have the money readily available with me, instead i decided to focus totally on my universitas 21 application to National University of Singapore.. i hope i get in, i really wanna go there now, even if its really daunting... 6 months in a differnt country and continent, plus apparently its really hard down there, but still i just really wanna experience it!
so for this summer i have 3 option ( for now) 1 is it get a work placemnet with a architect here in london ...2 to save money and go to Nigeria and stay there for a bit ... 3 to go to italy , strangely the latest which would have been my favourite option just a few months ago is now my least favourite, i dont think italy has much more to offer than it already has done, i'm not sure what i would do if i go there... i mean yh its fun but its not meaningful.
somethign else i'd like to do this summer would be go to volunteer in africa or go camping all summer maybe in the uk but like all the way through the summer. i just wish anyone would like to do that with me, its cheap, its fun, its safe, i mean like a month circulating the national parks like 1 week in peak district, 1 in lake district, 1 in yorkshire dales, 1 in black mountains,1 in i dunno i would just love it!!!!!!!
i fell like i need some excitement in my life really !!!
Tuesday, December 1
Saturday, November 21
I Feel Better
i still have my cheating's boyfriend email + password... yh i knw... dont tell him.
well anyway, he humiliated me so much am still looking for revenge but im patient.
hes a complete and total loser ... lol ... he got his free travel card confiscated because hes a loser and hes got to earn it back by doing community service ... hahahahha this is the humiliating confirmation of his community service session this week :
16th November 2009
Dear Parent/Guardian,
Re: Earn Your Travel Back
I write to confirm that your child (Him) has a place on the EYTB session to volunteer with London Wildlife Trust (LWT) to earn back their free travel.
Participants will be met outside Chiswick park tube station at 9:30 am by LWT staff and we can walk to the site. Look out for staff in London wildlife branded clothing. A sandwich lunch will be provided. Participants are responsible for their own travel arrangements to and from Chiswick park tube station.
Time and date: Saturday 21st November 2009, 9:30am – 4pm
Location: Gunnersbury Triangle Nature Reserve, Bollo Lane, Chiswick, London, W4 5LN
Description of work: step building, cutting back vegetation, painting and pond work. Due to pond work, it is advisable to bring a change of clothes.(Muahahahahahaha)
Tubes: District line to Chiswick Park (this is the easiest route)
Or Hammersmith tube station, (Hammersmith & City line) then take
Buses, Stop: B 27, 267, or H91 to Chiswick park tube.
Please complete and sign the attached Parental Consent Form and this must be brought along on the day or your child will not be allowed to attend. Come prepared with appropriate clothing and sensible footwear( GOSH! i wish i could take pictures). We will be working outdoors; therefore a waterproof jacket is advisable.
On a satisfactorily completed session LWT will give the participant a completion letter and inform TfL who will reinstate the free travel concession within 10 working days. Please note that this offer of completing voluntary work in the community to earn back the free travel is only offered once to each individual. Any further breach of Transport for London’s (TfL) Behaviour Code will not result in an opportunity to earn travel back through volunteering.
Please note that on applying for this ‘Earn Your Travel Back’ scheme, you are no longer eligible to appeal the loss of your child’s oyster card. So it is important that they turn up on the day and on time as we can only wait for ten minutes. Late arrivals will automatically fail unless they call and leave a message to explain. Those that have left me a message to explain will have to make their own way to the site.
Parents please note you will be unable to stay with your child while they are working on site, I am happy to discuss any concerns that you may have and am available to take calls Friday 20th November, on 0797 1315 746,
Contact phone number for the day is 0773 4599 286.
Yours faithfully,
Samantha Lewis
Earn Your Travel Back Coordinator
well anyway, he humiliated me so much am still looking for revenge but im patient.
hes a complete and total loser ... lol ... he got his free travel card confiscated because hes a loser and hes got to earn it back by doing community service ... hahahahha this is the humiliating confirmation of his community service session this week :
16th November 2009
Dear Parent/Guardian,
Re: Earn Your Travel Back
I write to confirm that your child (Him) has a place on the EYTB session to volunteer with London Wildlife Trust (LWT) to earn back their free travel.
Participants will be met outside Chiswick park tube station at 9:30 am by LWT staff and we can walk to the site. Look out for staff in London wildlife branded clothing. A sandwich lunch will be provided. Participants are responsible for their own travel arrangements to and from Chiswick park tube station.
Time and date: Saturday 21st November 2009, 9:30am – 4pm
Location: Gunnersbury Triangle Nature Reserve, Bollo Lane, Chiswick, London, W4 5LN
Description of work: step building, cutting back vegetation, painting and pond work. Due to pond work, it is advisable to bring a change of clothes.(Muahahahahahaha)
Tubes: District line to Chiswick Park (this is the easiest route)
Or Hammersmith tube station, (Hammersmith & City line) then take
Buses, Stop: B 27, 267, or H91 to Chiswick park tube.
Please complete and sign the attached Parental Consent Form and this must be brought along on the day or your child will not be allowed to attend. Come prepared with appropriate clothing and sensible footwear( GOSH! i wish i could take pictures). We will be working outdoors; therefore a waterproof jacket is advisable.
On a satisfactorily completed session LWT will give the participant a completion letter and inform TfL who will reinstate the free travel concession within 10 working days. Please note that this offer of completing voluntary work in the community to earn back the free travel is only offered once to each individual. Any further breach of Transport for London’s (TfL) Behaviour Code will not result in an opportunity to earn travel back through volunteering.
Please note that on applying for this ‘Earn Your Travel Back’ scheme, you are no longer eligible to appeal the loss of your child’s oyster card. So it is important that they turn up on the day and on time as we can only wait for ten minutes. Late arrivals will automatically fail unless they call and leave a message to explain. Those that have left me a message to explain will have to make their own way to the site.
Parents please note you will be unable to stay with your child while they are working on site, I am happy to discuss any concerns that you may have and am available to take calls Friday 20th November, on 0797 1315 746,
Contact phone number for the day is 0773 4599 286.
Yours faithfully,
Samantha Lewis
Earn Your Travel Back Coordinator
Sunday, November 8
Oh Yh ... I forgot
about a month ago i cut all of my hair :O
yes i now have an inch or hair on my head, its not very feminine either because i'm not styling it or strightening it, i'm just waiting for it to grow, into an afro woohooo
well wat happened is, i think , since i started uni, i changed a lot, grew up a bit, started embracing myself more.
i decided to get rid off all the chemicals in my hair, what better way to do it than to totally cut it all of and start afresh.
this is the first time i have purely natural hair, and i'm LOVING IT . i just love my curls they are the most amazing shapes and texture!
i really cant wait until this hair grows so i can bust my afro round.
i anyone has any tips on how to keep it from breaking or making it grow or watever i'd like to hear em.
i'm trying to use the minimum creams, just using blue magic sometimes and olive oil moistureizer, my mum said after i finish both i should stick to using olive oil ( the actual oil) as it helps strenghten your hair ad makes i grow, only problem is leaving oil everywhere u go.
i'm currently keeping my hair in a wrap just to protect it :D
seee yaaaaarz
yes i now have an inch or hair on my head, its not very feminine either because i'm not styling it or strightening it, i'm just waiting for it to grow, into an afro woohooo
well wat happened is, i think , since i started uni, i changed a lot, grew up a bit, started embracing myself more.
i decided to get rid off all the chemicals in my hair, what better way to do it than to totally cut it all of and start afresh.
this is the first time i have purely natural hair, and i'm LOVING IT . i just love my curls they are the most amazing shapes and texture!
i really cant wait until this hair grows so i can bust my afro round.
i anyone has any tips on how to keep it from breaking or making it grow or watever i'd like to hear em.
i'm trying to use the minimum creams, just using blue magic sometimes and olive oil moistureizer, my mum said after i finish both i should stick to using olive oil ( the actual oil) as it helps strenghten your hair ad makes i grow, only problem is leaving oil everywhere u go.
i'm currently keeping my hair in a wrap just to protect it :D
seee yaaaaarz
Last Week : The Worst Week Of My Entire Life ...
This was supposed to be posted last last week... meeeh am fine now
last week was the worst week of my life , i dnt even know what i did to deserve it
Monday early morning: lose my contract phone on the taxi taking me back to accomodation after weekend home
Monday Afternoon: miss studio on the most important and fun project till date.
Tuesday Allday: being depressed because someone would not pick up their phone.
Wednesday Afternoon: being dumped by a cheating idiot
Wednesday Evening: my remedy fun ight gets cancelled and i binge on pizza
Thursday Allday: being majorly depressed
Friday Evening: come backhome for a week and dreading it
Saturday Allday: lazying around not doing my work and feeling sorry for myself
Sunday Evening: my uncle died.
Your thoughts please.
last week was the worst week of my life , i dnt even know what i did to deserve it
Monday early morning: lose my contract phone on the taxi taking me back to accomodation after weekend home
Monday Afternoon: miss studio on the most important and fun project till date.
Tuesday Allday: being depressed because someone would not pick up their phone.
Wednesday Afternoon: being dumped by a cheating idiot
Wednesday Evening: my remedy fun ight gets cancelled and i binge on pizza
Thursday Allday: being majorly depressed
Friday Evening: come backhome for a week and dreading it
Saturday Allday: lazying around not doing my work and feeling sorry for myself
Sunday Evening: my uncle died.
Your thoughts please.
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