being depressed

so i have been depressed for a while, been feeling like shit
i think i might have been a little paranoic too , i dunno

i feel so distant from everyone else, my family , my friends, my acquantances
it seems like everyone is moving on apart frm me, well maybe the right way to say it is, it feels as if everyone thinks i have moved on already so they have left me on my own and now that am alone, loneliness is creeping inside and eating away at my soul.

i feel hollow, empty, i dunno how to describe it,
useless, filthy, dirty ... like... like i am not worth living

i have been depressed before, but this has been so far the worst i have felt
all of my problems have decided to trap me in a corner and torture me

what i have done to deserve this?

if i were brave enough, i would write my problems down, am too much of a coward...
i dont wanna acknowledge them...

all know is that i need to be mentally stable for uni...and at the moment am not
i need to be more than mentally stable
i nee to stron and hapy and in control









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